That little innocent girl within me was rapidly dying and I was gradually turning into something else. My family still saw that good girl in me but I knew I was far from that. I was living a hypocritical life. As early as 9years my life had taken a different direction. I knew what was going on but I just couldn’t help it! I had begun living a dark life. Then God showed me a revelation of the rapture three years after; my name wasn’t part of those going to heaven. The angel with The Book of Life told me I had been given another chance to go back and make things right. I decided to turn my life around and go back to Christ. I mean, who wouldn’t? After a revelation like this? But it was only for a short while. I found myself doing the same things I used to; downloaded all the secular music I had deleted from scratch and even got more than I had before. By then I hadn’t understood the basic elements of having a relationship with God and His Presence. When I got to senior high, I cried at every opportunity I got to be alone at home during vacation because I knew what harm I was doing to myself and how much hurt I was bringing to God anytime He looked at my life. But I just couldn’t get a grip of myself and say NO to the world. I could stay months without going to church irrespective of my parents getting furious. The Bible was just a decoration on my bed. Deep down I was struggling but I wouldn’t open up to anyone about it. The fact that I was getting beautiful prophecies concerning my future made me feel like God couldn’t do without me, so after all I wasn’t so far from Him (that’s a BIG ERROR to think like that). I continued living like this till I got to the latter part of second year in senior high school when I received ANOTHER revelation about the rapture. This time, I had gotten to hell and my cubicle there was extremely big with lyrics of secular music dancing all around the wall. As for this time, I decided to seek HELP and guidance which I got. I let God turn my life around and make me who He wanted me to be. I came to a point where I couldn’t even stand hearing certain words which aren’t pleasing to God’s ears. I completed the school and thought I’ll have more time with God which I did only up to a point when I clearly started picking up past habits bit by bit. I got to the university, first year first semester, and will even drink more than the boys at our little get togethers. At this moment, I was going to church but didn’t have a stable one. Then one day I sat down and spoke to myself (with help from certain people I thank God so much for the roles they played in my Christian life till date) and FINALLY, after all these years, I boldly and confidently said NO!!! NO to everything unpleasant in the sight of God!!! NO to alcohol!!! NO to ungodly acts!!! NO to backsliding!!! Just NO!!!! Because I was tired! Tired of hurting God! He’s not something I can just play with! He deserves better and more from me. Way way more! Now, I got a stable church and made it a point where the Bible is no longer a decoration on my bed. I’ve come to understand the Presence of God and staying in it. Just as Myles Munroe preached once, I’ve come to understand that I’m pregnant with an assignment and a purpose and I don’t have to leave this world owing an explanation as to why I wasn’t able to birth EVERY single result into this World. All I want is to grow more Spiritually and get to know God deeper! Whenever the old habits want to hug me I slap them with Scriptures and then they flee. I just can’t allow myself to go back. I can boldly say I’m a living testimony to sins and habits automatically falling of by staying in The Presence of God. Indeed old things have passed away, all things have been made new. I’m a new creation. A new being! I’m happy, stable and peaceful.
If you’ve realized, I mentioned secular music most. It does so much harm to your life than you see. It attracts demons to your life and makes you backslide!
So no matter what you’ve been through, what direction your life is headed or how dark your life has been, You may have done worse things than I did, God still wants YOU! But the earlier you turn to Him and stay in His Presence, the better!
Everything blocking the rapture has been removed. There’s no much time and you have an assignment to fulfill. Run to the mercy seat while you still can.
I pray for more Grace for anyone struggling with His/her Christian life, that God will do even greater than what He did in bringing me back for the Bible says the Glory of The latter house shall be greater than that of the former.